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I'm pancakes, i'll always lend an ear to ur troubles and a shoulder for you to lean on.
Love status:in love with the most amazing girl ever. (more about me?)

Loves: hanging with my friends, watching anime, playing WoW, laying down with my wonderful girlfriend, cardgames
Hates: feel helpless, being far away from my girlfriend when i'm stuck at college, clowns, needles

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not ur dog!
Okay, i doubt anyone still reads this, but if they do that's fine. I just really need to vent right now.

i have to start off by saying that i still love jen more than anyone else in the world. Nothing will change that. I'm just getting sick and tired of feeling more like her pet than her friend.

We only hang out when she wants to. When we hang out we only do what she wants to do. When we're out she always gets money from me cuz she wants something and doesn't have enough to buy it and she knows if she starts talking about how much she wants it i'll offer to let her borrow the money. She never pays back the money, or give back anything i let her borrow.
Even online my life isn't my own. I can't go to bed when i feel like it cuz she makes me feel guilty by telling me how no one else talks to her online and saying she's "sorry she's boring me" so i'll feel bad. I don't want her to be lonely or anything, but i really need to go to bed sometimes.

I just feel like i do everything she wants me to and that's it, we never can just do stuff i wanna do or just hang out. I don't want to tell her about this and my feelings because i don't want her to get upset. I just don't know how much longer i can keep standing there with a smile as i get treated like a dog. I'm going to break soon if i keep this up.

---Josh---