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I'm pancakes, i'll always lend an ear to ur troubles and a shoulder for you to lean on.
Love status:in love with the most amazing girl ever. (more about me?)

Loves: hanging with my friends, watching anime, playing WoW, laying down with my wonderful girlfriend, cardgames
Hates: feel helpless, being far away from my girlfriend when i'm stuck at college, clowns, needles

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Well, i'm fairly sure no one reads this anymore... but i wanna talk about this where few people will see it.

I feel really good right now. I've got this great sense of satisfaction. It's like i've finally done something worth doing, something that makes all the crap in life worth putting up with.

SHE called, crying. I didn't know what to do. What could i do? I listened to everything she said. I heard her talk about her problems, and stayed silent, waiting for her to finish. Finally she told me to talk, my views on the subject probably didn't help at all. I'm a cynic, i think most people are assholes and aren't worth 5 cents. I've learned to put up walls and act fake for those people. only a few ppl know the real me, and those are my real friends, the people i care about, the people i love.

She kept crying, i wanted to find anyway to make her feel better. There was only one shot left.... the gift that sam left me with.... the lesson i learned from all the years of sarcasm, all the times he mocked me, all the times he'd made an entire self help chatroom go silent and leave. I tried to make her laugh to get her mind off it. I told her i'd help her celebrate her day, take her to the movies... watch some major vampire/werewolf violence.

I brought up all the good times we'd had. All the good times before the really bad thing happened to us both. How stupid, on crack, or assbitchycuntfucked our teachers were. All the stupid things people like james, brad, and tim would do on a regular basis. The IFP movies.... u know they're glorious.

She told me she had to go eat supper. She was laughing a lot at that point. I think i actually made a difference today. And that's why i feel happy.